had a good couple of dayz. wanned to celebrate. But basically th@s it. I'm kinda bored n dunno wots goin on. My nan is in hospital n th@s y ive bin down n all the other fiascos goin on rite now. Im a mess but hey im ready to tidy. N u wnt understand that unles u nome cause of my obsession with cleanin.

But yea, had sum gr8 dayz n hope that cn get beta!

Havent blogged in so long! Things are strange right now. Just loosig it really. Another family gathering disaster. Why is it th@ family r those hu r supposed to luv u n yet intend 2 hurt u u cn feel lyk just gettin so fuckin drunk u dnt giv a fuck if u show urself up or nt infront of them cause i wot c them 2 a yr. So f**k em they dnt no me neway!

Family just giv u greif n wanna mak me feel lyk shit, so y bother. God n the trouble with my other 2 sisters. Messy!!!!!

But im so dissapointed in my dad n hes the one person i thought i trusted. But its all in my mind i c!!!!

Screw it!

ARGHHHHH!!! families. Y bother!!!

Sorry im angry!!!

Widowbird

AAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHH HHHHHHHHH!

What dialmeas! screw this mad life! This is all just crazy. I'm dreading goin back to school. I just dnt no whether i cn b arsed or not with yr 13. I figure i will so i cn waste anotha yr in nt havin 2 botha doin out. Well thats my attitude til results day neway.

Honduras is so close n im so excited!!! Yey. Nu booklets comin out the info pack things r altered.

So random been thinkin thoughts

Visited my nan 2day. She isnt very healthy nemor. I love her to bits tho, she is such a bad influence bless her. Worry about her tho.

Watching armeagddon feared that it will come soon. Not the whole rock hit earth bang bang thing but we're gonna kill the world sooner rather than later i believe and it scared me!!! What if i cant live till my 100's beacuse the world is so full of this human bull shit we pour into it it just gives up and dies on us???? So i shall now try and respect the world more, how...hu nos but i will try my best

Dunno wot to tlk about, its tru i tlk 4 the sake of nt tlkin. that makes no sence so i'll go now.

Widowbird.

Watched Download ch4 last nite wow did Ville valo look different thn manchester!!! And that guy with the hooks in his back - ouch

Also watched that live aid bob geldof n the other ignored guy thing. Mad. But good all the same!!

Ne way am gonna go now

xx

ok so im off at the mo cause exams r ova. Yet ive bin doin more stuf thn i was wen i was studying or shall we put it this way "studying" and now Widowbird you know why u've failed ur exams. All of which went cra btw. i thought my eng lit had gone ok but then i realise when re readin my notes i dun crp n nt rote the rite stuff! OMG u idiot! And then my philosophy and Ethics paper omg it couldnt have gone worse unless i didnt show up!!! omg what an idiot!!! so yea that just went down the drain.

Then thru my week off im avtually workin wed and fri, was up twn mon, helpin out with a primary school wlk 2day and so thurs is my only day off. But hey beta 2 b busy then bored!!!

I actually have had really bad news in my family recently - well actually in the past 2 or 3 days. An elderly auntie has died after depression and starvation, i just hope she is happier now than she has been in the past few months since i believe she has died of a broken heart since it wasn't long ago her husband died and she hasnt been able to cope since then.

And then i found out that my neice Yasmin's real dad scotty has died. I just have no idea what kind of pain she is feeling right now. Loosing your dad at 10. I just dont understand God sometimes.

Im very worried about Kerry Ann atm and if you read this please tlk to me, nt that you will but its worth a shot.

Really looking forward to seeing everyone at school. I miss you all and i hope that we'll have a better yr13 than yr12! Cause man was that a screwed up yr!!!! Common room - zoo more lyk!!!! But gota keep those yr11 gonna b yr12's under control!!!

So after re avaluating this blog i see that the title is fitting but nt really sensative enough to really address some of the subjects but since ive just wrote this and kept the title i guess it will stay instead of actually deleting it ive just wrote a paragragh about it. Oh Widowbird you are crazy!!!

But anyway gonna do something else now so i'll talk 2 u all sumtym soon.

Widowbird x

Tis my birthday. Which usually is a really crap thing and i hate it. But today is really great. The sun is shinning and so my picnic with my friends should be great. I got driven to town in a proper James Bond stylee sports car and twas really exciting!!! I got my nu phone and my extra card for my camera! Everything is looking good - yey!

For once my b'day is something to loathe but something to be happy about.

OOOooooo I also got RAY on DVD yesterday!!! It is totally awsome!!! Such a great film!

OK well g2g

Widowbird x

dont know why im still afraid if you werent real i would make you up

wish that i could follow you i know that your love is true and deep as the sea

but right now everything i want is wrong, and right now, all my dreams are waking up, and right now, i wish i could follow you

to the shores of freedom

where no one lives

was kinda crazy! quite but then got better n i had nout to drink afta the wine at my house! which i smoothly blamed on kelly hu went out that night with drinks to her mates! Jay not so smooth was so drunk that horney minx! Dan n charlie wer so cute tho look the same when they dance which is scary!!!! Danced all night had a crazy chat with the bouncer guys whu wer actually really nice lol.

Failed my english AS sign me in for jan re-sits. Ah well tis almost ova!

N as 4 everythin else i guess not every1 cn b happy n i just hav 2 miss out but im just tired of waitin 4 my turn! screw it ill b  a robot!!! i hate home!!!

Widowbird

omg my exams r drivin me crzy! thnx god for half term!!! OMG OMG!!! ARGH

GUD LUK everyone!!! try nt 2 b too freaked

do what i say not what i do huh!!

neva mind cn resit at least 2 tyms yet afta this soo ok chillin down a bit.

gud luk

Widowbird xx

Hi peeps, im eating all of Lindsey's pringles! Hehe! Im off fishing now so beware of the monkeys and shave your beards. Top banana.

OMG saturday night was soooo awsome!!! Julian was just so good! We all had such a great tym! Me n Charlie danced 4 4hrs n neva sat down or left the room or anything it was sooo soooo good! Definately gonna go nxt yr. It was really weird when the fire alarms went off tho and everybody was out and the fire engines came and stuff, it was crazy! But OMG at about 12ish me and Charlie bracey were invited to the after party by one of the band members and were tlking to him for a while it was so cool! OMG they were askin us to go in their coach to a hotel somewhere which was quite scary but cool. And we saw Julian Marley really close and it was just so good.

And now it gets wrecked by the realisation that we have exams on monday and i have 6 this week! ARGH

But we were told we being me n charlie that we should come back next year and see them again by the band guy and so with them nxt year since he didnt believe my dad was picking us up. Crazy!

OMG it was so good tho, the "vibe" was all around n i was "buzzin" 4 ages!!!

Good luck with all exams every1!!!

Widowbird x 

Thank god 2moros the last day i migh just give up! and only one lesson but i really wanna say bye 2 yr13 so i think i'll go in all day neway. N its either loungin round the common room or at home. So it dnt really make much difference! Im really gonna miss yr13. They're actually a gud yr. Well the ppl i know neway! Nxt yrs yr11s r gonna b a pain. N hell this yrs gon fast doesnt seem 2 minutes since we started 6th form and now its the end! OMG things are just so crazy!!! Mad!!! totally mad. And thers just so much goin on 4 everybody and AS in lyk 4 days! OMG i really havent revised at all and that is sooooo bad!!! im gonna fail. But ova exam leave im gonna try work my ass off n fail!!!

Theres Julian marley on saturday - DAY OFF WORK! deserves celebration!

And then 27th is Lizzies 18th!

Hope all kk yr13s have a great tym, or are havin a gr8 tym at prom!

Widowbird!

Well iv had such a random day. God, i was just regular joe in the moring. Cause iv had double free and yea, twas all calm n cool except the major cold irratating gurrness. i make no sense but ok. Then philosophy i was just so i wanna scream n throw things at the wall which i know i'll probally do by the end of this week! ARGH!!! Then wot, ummm. I was insulted cause i cnt play computer games at lunch n i suck!!! Then 5th supposed to have sociology. Tlked to ppl i dnt usually say much to in rm4 n i tlked to kerry ann and that was really good. Avoided goin down to the river by temptress helen! that naughty minx. Got malestered by jamie but wot else is nu! Chris majorly insulted me, but sed sory n is 4given. Then 6th just regular joe sociology. Such a mad mad day today! All crazy but gona c julian marley on saturday so twill b all good!!!

Lets just hope that 2moro is easier to handle!!!

Widowbird

I have made such a fucking mess! why did i eva open my big fuckin mouth.

Im so fucking stupid with no idea of what the hell to do at all.

Im just so mad and have only my self to blame for it. I just cant sleep at all, i dont wanna go out, im a fucking mess and can do nothing about it!

FUCKED UP MESS!

such a shitty ass day. Cudnt b arsed. so fuckin sick of school lets do exams n b dun. Fuck it it's a shit hole devised to look like a school.

But thank u Jamie n Chris.

Tho i dont appreciate behind my back snarly comments. What are we yr 2 or yr12???

Hey thats how it goes, i guess everyone is just fuckin fed up and its gettin to ppl, so goin out for a happy go lucky good day tomorrow. And hope to see smiles!

And yes, despite all refusion towards emma shannon I have an addiction to pepsi n caffine! MADNESS ooo may go listen to some now i think.... ska gud stuff!

welll.... another day passed. Just a complete random mix of very random events. I just felt proper crazy. I just feel lyk leavin 6th from. Whats the point of stayin??? i just gurrrrrr........ i just cnt b arsed wiv it nemore. The hole fuckin atmosphere is just all crappy! just all crappy!!!! MADNESS! SCREAMS!!

well im sorry im just fucking mad!!! I just wanna burn my house down. If u cnt b arsed with me ranting well dnt read this blog but im just so fuckin tired. i feel like im gonna explode! just so fucking fucking fucking FUCKING

FUCKING FUCKING BULL SHIT!!!!!!

I feel like if i dont just yell the place down im just gonna fucking explode and just fucking die. YES everything id fuck fuck fuck today but to be honest i dont care - dont worry ill be calm by tuesday.

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Well the truth comes out!!

Well, today was my g uncle peters funeral. Which is a totally shit start to the day. He's lovely, my grandad is really upset and he never cries. Then there's the stuff i was tlkin to tammie about which was just a total mess. She cried, i cried, e both cried. And apparently it was because we'd had a fight but thats not true. Shes talkin about going to coventry which is totally crap. I was just upset all day. I yelled at james unsworth which wasnt very nice but i appologised so thats alright. it just seemed i was being talked abot all day tho it was my parinoia im sure. well i hope neway. Its just been such a crappy day. And whereas most of my mates are at an 18th im here stuck at home alone as my dad and susan have taken my auntie to lancaster and to see my cousin. God the day just gets worse n im being totally selfish today. i feel like totally breaking down and dying in a hole. What the fuck is with the universe and i have no william by my side. But thank you to everybody who has been understanding today - it's really appreciated!

Widowbird

touch me in the moring then just close the door   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;         & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;   

leave me as you found me, empty like before.

today i was really unhappy. i cried for 2hrs straight and i just couldnt b arsed. school is turning into a place of absolute torture. i cant stand it. but im gona av 2 stay cause wot the fuck else is there??? There's just somethings ppl cant handle and when eveythin crashes at the same time u just fall apart and things are too much 4 everyone

well, fri night was a strange nite. embarassing. My god, primary school reunion, then ooohhh a certain person i really just didnt want to see and 12 i repeat 12 ppl sttod on my foot. o, n the joy of sittin behind a couple all nite. And just as i thort that the night was gonna be a total crappy shananigan it turns out that it was really a good night. Yea, i had a gud tym. twas rather random and nt a regular get drunk and just dance all night thingy but i had a gud tym. Apart frm the few "jamie moments" but hey, thats him n i wudnt change him 4 d world. but yea, all gud.

i just miss certain ppl Yasmin, Will. God ppl no one can replace and sumtyms u just want to be with you - and not just in spirit!

But what cn u do. Oh helen, Tom doesnt hate u or emos! ermm, oh n katie, u were totally drunk - dont deny it!!!!

k well alrite tlk soon Widowbird x

I actually started out 2day to hav really a totally crap day. full of shit - no cause. But then it actually got alot better. ok today was a total embarassment n jamie if u open ur mouth i swear - your voice will be as high as a kite!!!!!!!!!! but yea, i was so glad 2 see him. i realsed that there are more important things. N altho susan has been a bitch thers stuf i care about mor than her fucking out of her ass oppinion!! Well yea, just wanna say that but hey - i dunno wot the hell im on now??? i think i must just b fuckin insain!!!!!! n chris huni, i hope ur alrite. neway nt really much happenin.

Widowbird

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